22

Well, I am 22 and I realized something very unfortunate and depressing on my birthday (I did have a pretty great birthday though)..

Last year before I transferred to Mankato, I was very fit and active in Moorhead. I was going to the gym everyday in the morning doing Weight Watchers and I began to feel very confident about myself and all that. I looked great and I felt great! Since I've transferred that has really gone down the pooper. I was scared of a new gym and a new environment. I've only gone to the gym a couple of times and I stopped doing Weight Watchers. I feel so unhappy about my body sometimes, even though I am a firm believer that everyone is beautiful, sometimes it's just hard. 
I've been pretty down about my body and my activity level. I want to get back into shape, I'm just having a hard time getting motivated. I've been trying to go walk more and do more but then I get bummed out and blah! (It also does not help that I suffer from depression and it has gotten worse since transferring..) 

So I decided that I do not want to waste year 22 of my life being sad about my body. I do not want to be unhappy, overweight, and inactive. I want to be 22, confident, healthy, and fit! So I've made a commitment to myself from now I am going to actively practice portion control, begin to work out more, and try to eat cleaner. So I am hoping that I don't give up on myself! I am ready to be happy and healthy again! 

So here's to hoping that this year, I will lose the weight I gained and gain back the confidence I lost! I'm going to work as hard as I can. So I might need some external motivation at some points! 

Until next time!